I have some year-end reflections I wanted to share, a behind the scenes look of things that happened for me in 2018. I'm interested in what is real, and what is true. I lean towards radical honesty, wherever I can. Last year was really eye-opening, beautiful and brutal at moments. Many unexpected things happened. I welcomed thunder and lightning and chaos and community and visibility into my life. All these things both excite and terrify my at the same time.
I came through, we all did. I am here, a little softer around the edges, still breathing and most importantly...
I still believe in magic.
New Year blessings, wild darlings!
We have crossed over into the New Year, are just through Capricorn season and we meet now on the other side of the Full Moon and Lunar Eclipse. Electric feels all around. January is also my birthday month.
I confess, I'm taking a lazy approach this year to intention setting and self-reinvention and I'm feeling really good about that. My typical Capricorn style is to turn everything into hard work, and I'm no longer into it.
This is story about reclaiming, rising up and returning to the fold as a modern priestess.
One year ago I began the Sage Priestess Training Program with Vanessa Sage and began pondering the question: "What does it mean to be a Priestess?" Here is an early reflection I wrote after the program began.
Social Media is not our Savior
I find that when I'm nervous and anxious or unsure about something I research excessively and seek outside myself for the answers. I'm learning again and again that the internet cannot solve all my problems and the answers live inside me and my council is through my connection to Spirit and my guides. I had read something on Facebook about tuning inward to listen for guidance rather than using social media or the internet to search for it. That is the method I used, and am still using to answer this question, and create a sense of safety in my body to explore and excavate.
Priestessing is an ancient practice
I'm an artist and visual thinker by nature. I think in pictures. I see images in my head, sometimes like scenes from a movie. This is how I receive most of my intuitive information when I connect with my personal guides and while doing readings and mediumship work for others. When I tuned inward and asked myself what being a priestess meant to me, I was immediately transported to memories of a past life where I saw myself as a water priestess and temple keeper at place that looked very much like Tulum (a Mayan sacred site) although I have never visited in this incarnation.
This is story about the beginnings of my spiritual leanings as I headed down the path of magic.
I had some exposure to organized religion via christianity in my childhood but neither of my parents were zealous. I was always always always attracted to magic and mysticism. I have always been very curious about ecstatic experiences.
My earliest memories of my dreams as a child resembled something like the fabric of a nebula, and perhaps a mix of the forms that Plato wrote about.
Cosmic, fluid, grand, peaceful. I’ve always held me dreams close.
My foundational belief about spirituality is that “truth is a pathless land,” a Krishnamurti quote, meaning there are an infinite number of ways to arrive at the same truth, or divine essence or great spirit. I have an eclectic approach and draw from many traditions. I take what works and resonates and leave the rest. In this way I’ve become a shapeshifter which allows me to move about freely.
I am an empath. A highly sensitive one.